timbre

http://www.timbre.com.sg/main.asp

I’m going timbre to listen to music. haha.
Maybe with elecow this week or Melanie, the  week after.

Oh ya, by the way eleanor and i are friends again. (after two years)
Met her last friday and we chi chat through the evening till 9 plus.
At first I thought I might feel awkard, but it was okay after all.

Looking forward.:):):)

my ears are listening to her…

The Fear

 

Smile

LDN

Not Fair

A chat

Hi, I just had a chit chat over msn with Eleanor, as i saw her online during her 21st birthday night, so i thought i could just causally chit chat a little while. It turns out to be quite splendid and it lasted for an hr and a half. Well, at first it was quite weird, but later on with all the familiar topics and people, we chat quite a lot and promise to go for the chalet this upcoming Saturday after my Vesak Day at Sunday School. Well, I’m beginning to feel the anticipation in me towards the chalet now, it’s more of meeting Eleanor that is making me feel excited. Well,  this is a good chance to be back as normal after one and a half yr? Well, not too sure and certainly hoping for the best or at least a good. HAPPY! Well, she is going Melbourne to do her Fine Art for the next 5 years, if we could talk more before her departure, why not? certainly and never want to lose this friend in the first place, so hoping and waiting for a good turn….

 P.S. I miss those hiding days with her and Noel…

Recently….

Monday to Friday….
Nearly two months at work, i’m still trying very hard to cope with my working environment. In the beginning, I thought it was only time managment that I have to overcome, it wasnt just that. Well, I could only say I am bad at human relationship, and I’m still stuck with them, not anywhere fixing it. I can’t wait to move over to Changi South asap, so that my department has our own space and block away those faces. Sometimes i thought to myself, perhaps i am childish, perhaps i am still a newbie to the working environment, but I believe i’m not going to be fake or tortise hiding in one corner, nope this cant be me.

Saturday to Sunday….
Have been intoxicating myself recently and i know i shouldnt have done so. Drinking coffee liquors at Ice Cube w Janice and friends, clubbing, and w colleagues in the office after work when my boss is not around. Clubbing was fun, my first attempt and will go again but not so soon, totally relax drinking and dancing w friends at Future that Saturday’s night till 5am the next day when the lights finally turn on. However, such places after all is not in my list of very interest, still prefer the quiet nature place.  I have been out of the path from Buddhism this year and i have to get back. Tricia approached me during Vesak at Ngee Ann, to teach Buddhism in Chinese. I’m like what???? *eyes rolling up and down* No, Tricia cant be really asking me such questions, Buddhism in Chinese? OMB!!!! Anyway, I rejected, perhaps next year I will explore ways to spread Buddhism in a more ‘my way’ kind, perhaps back to teaching? But never will i try teaching kids older than Pri 6, no way… Can’t stand teenagers and their attitude, kinda of too high for me to reach out. Have to think through… Anyway, rather than drinking, clubbing which lasted for only past 2 weeks, i have been staying at home spending time with family especially my dad. Well, thanks for all the concern, he is getting better and not using wheelchair anymore, however still have to stay home and slack. He must have been feeling terrible to stay at home to rot, which i cant stand doing it too. Take care, my dad.

My day….
Well, have been problem at work with human relationship and having inner struggling with myself. Thought through tirely and think that i should be more let go in my emotion during work. Have been having problems of feeling anger rising up and down fast and furious, this isn’t going to last forever right? I should gain more control of my mind over emotion, and stop thinking to negatively, just let go at the right time… All this is said but takes times…

5th of May

Happy Birthday to you.

DHL

 

My big boss.

Hooi Chen, Foong and Melanie (my new colleague in import)

Eugene, funny guy

From extreme left, me, Fazi, Din, my boss Emily and my big boss.

Tiffany, new poly intern

Alfred, my senior executive

Daniel and Tiffany.

Going back to DHL to work is definitely a challenge for this upcoming 3 weeks or more. It has already been a hectic week for me already, many more things for me to learn. First day of work, Fazil already passed down all her things to me already, because she is resigning and leaving in less than 2 weeks. That’s why I have to take over her, and my Boss actually asked me to do Import as well. I’m like O____O!!!!! That is definitely crazy if she really demanded me to do that. That’s so much stuffs to handle at Fazi’s side, moreover I have not been in touch with all these things for 4 months and more. On my first day I really can do so much things, i think I deserve a praise from myself. With new KPI implemented, which requires us to do billing in 3 days time after vessels departure, instead of doing everything at the end of the month, I’m really feeling worried for my time management. Unlike Import, time management is crucial for me in Export and I know I’m suck at that. Got to keep it up, and I guessed I’m doing fine for now, except for the billing. I can do it, my colleagues have faith in me, so do I! Though working is stressful, it still feels great to back there with my colleagues, just a bit sad that Fazi is leaving us.  Tomorrow will be another week, hope nothing goes wrong with the weekend’s vessels.

Raffles Hotel

Both me and Jason

From the extreme left, Billy, Pinaki, Raman, Ah Ming, Ah Wai and Ber.

Doc Cheng’s Restaurant

Raffles Hotel

My favourite hotel…

Ah! Ber came to talk to me online, and we had a great time talking about Raffles Hotel, Doc Cheng, all the chef and waiters and waitresses that work there before. Wow, it has been 3 years since I left there. It feels good to talk about it. Wow, ber updated me with all the chefs’ whereabout and Doc Cheng’s business situation. Doc Cheng is a restaurant I worked in at Raffles Hotel before I enter Poly. It serves fusion cuisine and was very famous for that for a few years in the past, but now business has been from bad to worst. That is what i heard from Ber. The photo shows a very funny photo of me and jason with our Doc Cheng waiter and waitress uniform, i know is ugly. lol. Anyway, and the second photo shows all the chefs, actually not all, left out Chef Ah Yoong. These chefs take care of me during my 3 months at Raffles, by feeding me with food, food and more food at every split shift. I still remember we always have a mini gathering of eating lunch + dinner together at Doc Cheng, when the restaurant is closed after lunch hour, two meals in one, and after that is sleeping time. lol. Eat and sleep. Well, all these chefs were all very good to me maybe because besides Selima, I am the next female waitress? lol. Anyway, I miss Jason too! My best buddy and who really taught and helped me a lot. I still keep a fire order slip with Jason’s signature on it, I kept it caused his signature of his name is actually a drawing of bird. Amazing and beautiful signature, that’s why i kept it till now. Sentimental item. Let’s talk about each chef, see how much i could remember. Chef Billy, the main chef of Doc Cheng, who stand in the front line, doing garnishing and firing of dishes. Due to the fact that he is a thai, he speaks english in a very cute accent. Chef Pinaki, who always talk to me about Buddhism and the places he has been too. He is from India, and had never visit a chinese temple before, so I actually took him before to PKSSS, my Sunday school for a visit. His tomato nanh was yummy, I always request him to cook nanh for me and I can still remember on my last day, he cooked a few nanh for me. It was very nice of him. haha. Chef Raman, very friendly yey unpredictable with his temper, i remembered, occassionally pick up things to quarrel with Billy or my manager, Raul. lol. But he is always cooking very nice dishes for all of us to eat during lunch. Chef Ah Ming, same age as me, not much to say about him. Chef Ah Wai, cooks Lamb Rib and loves to fire dessert whenever there is orders. haha. Chef Ber, the one I was chit chatting with him not long ago. A young chef with much passion in cooking. haha. Loves firing dessert as well. haha, Creme Bulee and Crunch Bar with Macademia Nuts. Yummy… Those days that I worked in Raffles Hotel were really tough times but also gained a lot of experiences. Woke up at 6 p.m, reached home at 12 midnight, 6 days per week. Though I didnt get to work with my secondary school friends at BBR, working Doc Cheng is far better, as I get to see more insights of Raffles Hotel and get to walk around here and there. Long Bar, Tiffin Room,Raffles Grill, Ah Teng’s Bakery, Raffles Culinary Academy,Jubillee Hall,  Bar and Billard Room,Seah Street Deli, Writer’s Bar,  Raffles Court Yard, Sir Charles (florist shop), Raffles musuem, Raffles gift shop, all the suites, Raffles Armita Spa, Swimming pool and many many more places in it… Wow, fond of memories flowing through my mind now… It will be great if one day I can plan an event at Raffles Hotel, there will be great! Arh! It was really a great time working there, my favourite hotel ever! Woohooo… Heard from Ber that everyone in Doc Cheng who I had worked with, have all moved to other places already. Cheft Pinaki been to Cape Town to work and recently just came back and is working at Fullerton Hotel. Chef Raman is now at Raffles Court Yard and Ber is now at Room Service, cooking for inhouse guests. Chef Ah Ming and Chef Ah Yoong went missing, together with Jason, Jegan and Rubert, all went missing, even Karan, my assistant manager also dont know go where already, no longer in Raffles Hotel. Chef Billy went back Thailand and Chef Ah Wai is now as Ann Siang Hill, one of the restaurants there. Chef Ah Yoong went to Macau to cook and Rau, my manager is now working at Sentosa in one of the high end restaurant under Raffles Hotel. Selima, is the only one that is still at Doc Cheng. Wow, I guessed she has been there for like 6 years? haha. Melissa, a girl who came in to Raffles Hotel not long before I quit, did not have much impression on her, but heard from Ber is that she has now become a Butler. Wow, amazing.  It was nice chatting with Ber suddenly, as he sent me these two photos for me to keep. hahas. I wonder how’s everyone? Oh ya, my next best buddy, that I never mention yet, MARCUS WONG. Lol, one funny guy, who is really steady bom bi bi kind of person, super on and very efficient. hahas. He is now in other hotel, forgotten which hotel already, but he is doing fine, did talked to him few months back.  He taught me alot of thing, and always drag me along to help in Raffles Culinary Academy, which was located next to Doc Cheng, to help Angie to do things. Raffles Culinary Academy, simplify meaning is; ‘ Tai Tais’ place to learn how to cook’ but they will never need to cook, learn just for fun and attend lesson just to make more friends and spend their time through. lol. Haha. wow, wrote so much about Raffles Hotel, hahas. it’s 2:50am already, got to sleep. If time permit, I will blog about my life after graudation, simply meaning, ‘WORK’. lol. good night to me.

turmoil situation

I have know idea what is my Erjiedoing, she has not been helpful in the family, in this kind of situation somemore. My Dajieis really not happy plus stress plus tired. What to do? There are so many things, such as insurance claim, law firm thingy, Traffic police, hospital bill and SBS thingy. Arh, there are really many things on her head, which I cant help to carry the burden. My Dajie just had an argument with my mum about my Erjie’s attitude towards my dad. I have no idea and not in the position to ask, I feel like asking my Erjie, but then forget it la, later make things worse. I really don’t know what to do, felt rather useless not to be able to help my Dajie to settle those things. Hospitals’ bills came in today, $2,000 plus for CGH and $2,000 plus for AMKCH (15 days only). Oh my gosh, how to survive? Maybe the proposed of contract basis is a good thing for me after all. If I were to be permanent staff, I might have to contribute to CPF and pay back my dad a certain amount every month for poly fee. Even though I give it back to my dad, I’m not sure whether can he use or put back to CPF. Haiz… There is so many things unknown. In additional, recently my dad found out that at AMKCH he has to actually pay for the rehab exercise each session he do. We thought it was in the package of $128 per day. $128 x 15days = $1920, now dont know why is it 3,000 (before govt subsidy).

怎么瓣？

比起以前，现在的我对每件事情都感觉没有动力去做，就好像死了的人一样。
是以为那几件事吗，让我对自己没有心信吗？
好朋友可能觉的我作出的决定是对的，可是看到其他人对我不满的眼神和不喜欢，好像我是大坏人一样，我还是感到不自在。
终觉得很像是欠了她们一样，要在这半年过这很不开心的日子。
都要离校了，还是觉的大家不知道事情的经过就给我的那种脸，让我感到十分的不满。
我胜不过她们对人的假，我也永远也不想于这一点胜过她们。咳！
可是现在的我跟死人有什么不同？怎么瓣？

I’m lack of PROACTIVENESS in whatever I’m doing. Realising this shortcoming only during the process of FYP. From Shihui, I realised that I’m lack in so many areas, and I got to do something!!! In less than a month, I maybe starting a new life soon, working…

Well, franking speaking this job isn’t what I want to do or even stay long. If it wasn’t because of several factors to consider, I would have rejected Emily, my boss. However, it will be my first official desk-bound job after graduation, I should be optimistic about it! It will be a new start, and this job is going to save me from recession, I should be positive and happy. I hope I would not be as blur as I was during internship, or else I will soon be in deep shit again.

Meanwhile, exam is coming soon, I got to pass every module so that I can graduate. I’m rather disappointed in my mid-sem result for both modules that I have. Reflecting that my ability to balance in between projects and studies is poor. I need to buck up! I have not been giving myself stress for quite some time already, not even during FYP. Worries are not naturally stress. In my content, stress is something that can either pull you off from reality or it can push you forward to achieve a better result. Ever since my last achievement(at least something I think I have achieved), I have been having worries and only a little bit of stress that has not been pushing me forward, but hidding at one corner. Coward! Haiz…