Study Week.

Study Week

 

  Exam is coming, and now is the study week. Escaped from home and went out study at Starbucks, Woodlands Regional Library and also Changi Airport Pacific Coffee Company, and the best place to study is PCC. It is really a cosy coffee house to study. I studied my LOMe there, along w Zhao Pei, Jasmine and Jiaying. Kb was supposed to join us, but he decided to stay in school. Two more days to Calculus exam, oh man! Anyway, I met boon today, at Airport, McDonald, studying too. Good Luck to all my friends who are having exam soon.

 

 

 

At Milienia Walk, I met a rude sales assistant, who demanded a smile from me, when I only remind her to give a plastic bag. She stared at me as if I killed her husband or something. No one ever did that to me, and I was really scared. She looked like a old terrifying witch or an insane person. Jiaying thought I was kidding w her when I told her I was scared, but really at that moment, I just felt that the whole world is going disappear and left me alone with this witch. This incident really made me cant sleep whenever i think of it, though it seems to be only a small matter. It never happend to before to have such feeling that the whole world is disappearing, never ask me to repeat the whole incident, I will just be sad for the whole day, I still can remember her eyes staring at me every night before i sleep. ARH!

 

Jiaying and I went to PS to have our dinner, and while we were on our way from Milienia Walk to PS, the rain poured and we had to stay in the shelter at Singapore Art Museum. Then, we had our dinner at PS, saybon, this little french’s stall which sells delicious wild mushroom soup. Haha. Too much mushroom is no good, must suntan! hahas.  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

We were too bored, brain cells were killed, couldn’t continue to study so we played. haha. Above drawings were drew by me at Pacific Coffee Company, was drawing Michael Phelps winning his 8 golds! Celebrates his winnings! Congrats to the Winner of the winner for this Olympics 2008.

The reason why I want to become vegetarian.

http://www.meat.org/

PLEASE GO AND WATCH THIS VIDEO!

Renhui! You made me cried only half way through the video, oh gosh you’re heartless. But thanks for sharing this video, it motivates me even more to become vegetarian! THANKS a million, and i guessed, I will never able to understand those animal’s pain unless I go through them,but i can imagine people doing all those acts to me, on my body, that’s why i cried. oh gosh, poor cattles, pigs, chickens… I WANT TO BE FULL-TIME VEGETARIAN ASAP!

I was studying Calculus just now in school, haiz, disappointing. I actually got some questions wrong and some few mistakes, how can I be ready for calculus like this? But I guess I must be double hardworking then, think Tuesday i will go back to school to ask lecturers questions on LogPCS and Calculus. But overall, today’s mugging is rather fruitful despite unable to finish what I have actually planned.

After studying, while waiting for Zhao Pei’s friends, Jiaying, Zhao Pei and I were having some causal talk. Zhaopei actually confessed that she didn’t really like me before she knows me, because she thought I looked arrogant and the way I talked to the whole cohort in the lecture hall. haha, I thought she was going to tell me I looked fierce, but ARROGANT! Oh my! Hahas, but never mind, I told her i thought she looks ‘TAO’ too! hahas. Moreover, she thought that I looked like I took triple- science when I was in secondary school. I’m like WHAT! This is impossible man! Triple- science??? Hahas. And Jia ying said that I look arrogant is because I got the confident look, I’m like double WHAT??? Confident about what? What do I have to be confident of? Hahas.

Nowadays these comments seem not to be bothering me anymore. ‘attitude’, ‘fierce’, ‘aggressive’, ’stern’, ‘unfriendly’, ‘bitchy’, all these words are like nothing to me, I think I more of know what kind person I’m, so I guess I have no need to bother so much. I just have to learn to be less harsh in my words, but i still like that fact that I’m straight- forward, i like this me!

And giving speech or presentation in front of the whole cohort isn’t as easy as you think and some more is your own batch of course mates, do you know how pressurizing it was and how I try to avoid their eye contacts. hahas. Back there during LIG days, holding meetings and doing presentation in front of my LIG members were equally stressful, to hold the meeting with them for nearly an hour, I can’t believed that I have past through all these. To think about it, despite all those people that I have to work with, which in the matter of fact didn’t help me much, I learnt a lot on how to handle things and control situations. If  to let me choose again, I will take the same route and the same challenges, working independently for the Open House last year really give me some satifaction. It’s like when the whole things end, I was like ‘ARH, I DID IT, all by myself, Wohooo’ kind of feeling. hahas, but of course with the helps from my LIG members. hahas. To think about it, without people like Lionel, Aaron and CP, I wouldn’t have the opportunities to gain so many experiences and faced those challenges on my own. Emotionally, ya la, I still felt unfair that I’m doing so much and people keep on giving me other stress and problems, but look on the bright, there is more challenges for me to face and experience for me to gain. lol, Also, I’m still trying to overcome the emotions and thoughts of feeling unfair. Trying…

My Coursework Grades.

Calculus — A
LogPCS — c+
LOMe — B
Quality Mgt — B
Transport Mgt — B

I got back all my coursework grades, oh gosh, I’m kinda of worried for LogPCS. A C+ is getting me no where for this upcoming exam, moreover it is demoralising. But I’m kinda of happy for LOMe that I saw that I got an A for my 10% participation in Mr Koh’s class, I don’t know why am I so happy about it. I guessed I’m a little bit proud that I talk too much in class that got an A to pull me up from a C+ for mid- sem. Talking about LOMe, last week’s tutorial was fun, debating session going on in our class about a case study. Fun!

I really need to study hard for LogPCS, so far as I’ve completed chapters on Bar Code, RFID and EDI, I find these chapters okay, but don’t know I can do those tutorials questions. Haiz… Try harder, YUSHU!

I’m disappointed.

Today I have so many things on my mind, I just want to get everything written on my blog. Yesterday was quite an unpleasant day, I sent out a message to Aaron, saying: ‘Next time don’t throw a mess to me and ask me to clear up. Seriously you have make me lose face in front of my event ppl, w/o knowing that it’s none of my business to be in charge of the t-shirt. Now they might have wrong impression of me la. Seriously I’m very disappointed in you and it’s accumulated.’ I sent this out to Aaron, and he called straight away, I didn’t pick up. What happened yesterday was that in Calculus lecture, he told me that this guy from Secretary, Ashraf messaged him to give out the LOM shirt only on LOM Day event itself. But both Aaron and I disagreed and then Aaron told him not to. Ashraf replied to his msg saying the steering junior subcom want to give out on that day and that’s the final decision they had made. So Aaron told me:’ Arh, Yushu, you go and settle your people, your people’. Then I asked:’What my people?’. Aaron said:’Your event people, go and settle them’. I’m like huh, this doesnt involve my event people, then he asked then why is Ashraf seems to be in-charge. So I thought that it was my event people who were in wrong, so as their leader, of course I had to go and settle. Straight after my lecture, I went to look for my event people and then they told me that they have no idea who suppose to be in charge, then I was blur and then I continue to ask why is Ashraf seems to be in charge of the whole thing, messaging Aaron all the stuff. They were puzzled and looked at me. I was quite angry with Ashraf, at the same time very disappointed in Aaron, I mean why do you want to push all the blame to my event people and me for what Ashraf has done, why didnt you tell me that it was suppose to be the senior in charge of the t-shirt thing, making me questioned my event people for nothing. Why did you point at me and ask me to settle ‘my people’? Hello look here, this is not the first time you have actually push all the scapegoat’s job to me, I know it but I didn’t want to say anything, I just thought that as a whole main comm, I should help one another, but it seems like you’re using me to your advantages for not one time, but many times. You thought i have no eye to see isn’t, thought I’m dumb all the long, hello I know about it but I didn’t want to appear to take any credits. First, putting me into trouble for asking the junior to come out with new logo when you jolly well know we have no time for that. Secondly, asking me to announce to the junior to reject their logo is another one. Thirdly, which happened last week, asking me to reject Mr Foo’s proposal to Elf, making me think that Mr Foo was too much to come out with last minute plan but actually Mr Foo has actually told you this thing like one month ago, still push the blame to Mr Foo, I didn’t say a word to you, to because I thought the most important thing is to help those junior to settle their problem first.  Fourthly, asking me to settle ‘my people’, when you’re the vice president. There were more in the past that I can write on, but I’m too tired. Seriously, did you ever reflect on your own acts or asking yourself what were your motive behind those scapegoat’s job that you pushed to others? And what makes you a good leader? to separate yourself and the junior subcom as two entities, and push them to my responsibility? Many chances have been given to you from us in the main comm, what have you done? I’m utterly disappointed with you, truly and really. Something cannot get rid off or settle with some fake smiles and laughters, even if I let you off in the previous time, doesn’t mean I’m going, especially this time.

Basketball.

This is just a random video of one of the basketball match played in 2003, Hwa Chong Junior College and Saint Andrew’s Junior College. The video is rather blur, but still okay to watch. Hmmm… 2003, I was still Secondary 3, the age when I’m still playing basketball at SRJC almost everyday. Arh, bring me back to basketball days please! Especially the days when by I got to see my cousin, Samuel playing at SRJC too. haha. I enjoy watching him playing basketball, the first one that I thought he really pour out his heart to play basketball, very passionate. I still remember the first time I played at SRJC and saw him, we didn’t talk to each other, as usual, but he messaged me to teach me what to take note about when I play basketball, after I left the court. Oh gosh, when i first read that message I felt so embarrassed, felt so watched by him when I had actually played so lousy. After that, we did start to play basketball together with my other cousins. Actually, I don’t talk my this cousin, if it wasn’t for basketball, I guess we are still stranger. Basketball really bought many things into my life, friends, competition, training under the sun and a thing to be passionate about. I want to play basketball till I’m old, when my teeth all drops, when I’m walking w a walking stick, I’ll still want to play basketball.

National Day’s Steamboat

I went to Zhongwei’s house at Woodlands last Saturday, but didn’t have a lot of people, only Szeyeng, MJ, Zhongwei, Jianhong, Jeffrey, Bolan and this friend frm Szeyeng’s batch, Jia Chang. The NDP wasn’t nice to watch, actually it was kinda of disappointing, not as if I watch the opening of the Beijing’s Olympic on the previous night. Comparing the NDP I watched in the past, this is quite a disappointing one. The whole steamboat was full of lame cold jokes, this time round was not Jianhong who came out with those jokes, it was me. Lol. Though a few people to kid around with, I did enjoyed the quality time spent with my buddhists’ friends. And we even watched Calafare and First Class together. Jade Seah is super cute with that spectacle on. lol. Bolan was so amazed by how much I like Jade, hahas. I wouldn’t be surprised that she thought I am a las. Lol.

征服

     終於你找到一個方式分出了勝負
     輸贏的代價是彼此粉身碎骨
     外表健康的你心裡傷痕無數
     頑強的我是這場戰役的俘虜

   ＊就這樣被你征服　切斷了所有退路
     我的心情是堅固　我的決定是糊塗
     就這樣被你征服　喝下你藏好的毒
     我的劇情已落幕　我的愛恨已入土

     終於我明白倆人要的是一個結束
     所有的辯解都讓對方以為是企圖
     放一把火燒掉你送我的禮物
     卻澆不熄我胸口灼熱的憤怒

     重唱　＊

     你如果經過我的墳墓
     你可以雙手合十為我祝福

This song stucks inside my head for a few months already, I have the song already but I just keep singing, until both Jiemin and Zhao asked me to stop influencing them with this song. But it is really a nice song to K with it. First came to know this song when 柯受良’s son, 柯有纶 came to Singapore for a PKSSS’s charity concert for Sichuan. He sang this song w his father through the speaker, immediately I fall in love with this song. Then went on searching for this song on youtube, and found this version of a female artist singing, 那英, a very good singer as well. I kinda of prefer 那英’s version than 柯受良’s version, that why I put up her video. Today, this song stucks in my head again, and I start singing it to myself. Zhao pei heard my singing and then say:’ Stop it ah Yushu, keep singing that chinese song’ lol. But I like, cant help it. hahas. I like a few lines from the lyric, which I have them in blue colour (above).

My Dream Cars.

This is my dream car, Land Rover- Defender. I saw a smiliar car on the road today while travelling on the bus. I want to drive this Land Rover, when I travel to around one day in my life time, obviously not in urban countries like Singapore and Hong Kong, no use of driving such car here, defeat the features of the MPV(Multi Purpose Vehicles). I like this brand Land Rover and Jeep, which are both not very commonly seen in singpore because they are more of off-road vehicle brand. I LOVE THEM!

This is another one of my dream cars called Jeep, Wrangler (1987), it is a mini SUV (sport uility vehicle). Another off-road vehicle, ideal car for traveling around Sahara Desert, one of the places that I want to travel around.

Attending lesson myself :)

I went for today’s lesson on 7 point mind training, by myself. Hahas. Though I thought of not going today, cause I thought I have to go home myself, then there also no friend. But I make it through today, and at the start of the movitation, Geshe said about able to learn Dharma, going there to have lesson is rare opportunity. It is the accumulation our past life hardwork, that we have the opportunity today to be listening to Dharma, one of the conditions. So, at the start I was motivated and listen attentively as what Geshe further explained that we should not waste such opportunity to learn Dharma and always postpone our practises, as death is uncertain. For the whole full lesson, I was taking down notes, enjoying to the joy of learning Dharma.

*Renhui, today’s lesson talks about the reasons for rejoicing in others’ virtuous deeds, and ends at the explanation of 7 Limb prayer which marks the last point of the preliminary (1st point of 7 point mind training)