Job offer.

I had a mixed feelings last friday, the last day of my SIP. Oh gosh, i can’t bear to leave DHL. When i wake up tomorrow, it is not the same old route that i took for the past 3 months.My heart goes up and down, unsettled. My boss wasnt there at work last friday, and Daniel said he will help me to ask for my testimonial on monday. My senior executive asked me seriously whether am i interested to stay, partially my answer is yes, but my mind is still wondering, so i answered don’t know. Opps, I guessed I shouldnt answered in that manner, luckily he said, never mind, next friday my boss will ask me and I have to give my final answer. Well, I bought some time over. woo…. The last day of my work, well i guessed I can see that everyone is going to miss me. Since Monday, they have been nagging me about my last day on friday, and I’m really at lost. I really going to miss everything, lunch in, movie during lunch,even overtime is a great time, eugene singing to me and all the jokes that we laughed about. There’s so many things to laugh about, though work itself can be stressful sometimes, especially at the start of my SIP, everything seems so difficult, but once i get familiar with it, it’s actually nothing. Arh… My collegues were very nice to me on Friday, bought me a watch and i think it was Daniel’s idea, as I broke mine last monday while we were doing packing of documents. lol. They went out to vivo to buy, and before i know abt the present, i still blame Daniel for not lunching in to watch movie w me. haha. He always teased me as a ‘tai tai’or a ‘miss’ caused every time xuewen and xiubin had to wait for me for lunch or after work. lol. Damn bad of me! hahas.

I asked Eugene to sing to me on my last day of work, and he sang me a song, which i forgot what is it, but he was damn hilarious with his facial expression. Super funny. Most of the time at work, the most-used muscle is not just my fingers but also my stomach. lol. I laughed hard most of the time. My imagination can go quite wild and weird, and i am always laughing to myself in front of the computer. Daniel is always curious of what am i laughing. hahas. half of the time i am laughing at Eugene, half of the time i am laughing at my imagination. That’s how i spent my 3 months there, laughing and laughing. That’s also why Dean always say i’m too slow. lol.

Talking about the offering of this job, i guessed i am not very confident to live up to the expectation that I have seen in everyone eyes. Wow, as in during my SIP days, I can notice that other department people do look down on me and perhaps they might be even pray hard that I didn’t do on their cases. I can tell by their sarcastic remarks, some were direct and some were not. Well, I get over it as an intern, but in the future, will i want to return back where by they have bad impression on me or should i go elsewhere to start a new? This is a question that is pondering me. Bravery is testing me, to go back to prove them wrong, and cowardliness tells me to start a new.

And If i go back, will all these good memories that i have with my colleagues be gone? I mean when you are an intern, it is different, everyone will be friendlier to you, and scare you might make mistakes, so they help you out. I got to think if i make my way back, would they be as helpful as i have seen them with each other? I got to think so much, it is going to be 2 or 3 years or more if i am going back. i wouldnt want to quit after a few months, that’s going to leave a black mark on my resume.

Some how i think i am pessimistic and thinking too much. I need to choose the choice what my heart wants me to follow. Well, what Daniel told me half and hour before i left did add in a little or much confidence in myself. He said it’s hard to have my boss wanting people to stay to work for her, i think i am sort of the first or first few, after so many interns have left. I don’t know, having it to say out from Daniel and from others is different, as i guessed i look up to this senior of mine. He’s far capable than me, and how i wished i am him. So hardworking and smart. For the past one week, I have seeked advice from fazi but Daniel, and the only reason is that I am scared that he is going to give me rather bad comments. Well, after what he said last friday, it really build me much confidence in me. But if i were to grade myself, i won’t give myself a ”Pass with Recommendation”, like what my boss gave me. I will give myself a nearly fail, opps. How many silly mistakes that i have made is really countless, every single one of it, i still remembered clearly. FIne kana $50 for permit, and then on my last week, i keyed in wrong transhipment to Fremantle, which actually supposed to go Brisbane, and we have to truck it to Brisbane, which means $$$. arh shut. This is going to be the kind of job i am going to get if i accept the offer. Oh gosh, i am a coward.

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胭脂扣

i’m mad, now it’s 1.18am in the night and i still have work tml, guess what I’m doing? I’m watching “Rouge (胭脂扣)”, acted by Anita Mui and Leslie Cheung, back in 1988. Late night movie craves.

I’m still watching…

saxophone

went over to ps today, wanted to buy gifts for my colleagues and also to check out the price of a tenor saxophone. was at yamaha shop in ps and found out that the price of a tenor saxophone ranging from $1,599 to $5,000 +++… Oh gosh. my new goal in life, is to be able to play saxophone, no matter how long does it takes to fulfill this dream of mine, i shall just give it a try in the future. I’m so in love with the sound of a saxophone, especially even after listening to this blogger, who himself is a musician, play not just tenor saxophone, but many other instruments. quite a talent, who video himself while practising or to teach people how to practise on certain notes. Listen to this below, which is the video that attracted me even more to want to learn saxophone. Excellent piece of music, perhaps is because it is my favourite song played in saxophone. hahas.

 

愛情副作用

黑夜就快吞噬我　用我不要的寂寞
我討厭脆弱的我　和黑暗的角落
你設定角色給我　我想我有些迷惑
成全了你的想像　我卻變得沈默

距離　能讓彼此冷靜
反省　不快樂的原因
愛　不該〔依賴〕遷就而存在

是愛情的副作用　在熱戀期後失控
你若要我為你改變　那你愛的不是我
是愛情的副作用　暗示我們已走到盡頭
誠實面對自己　誰也〔我認為〕沒有錯

我認為沒有錯　哦
愛情起了副作用
我認為沒有錯

This is a song by Rui en, my most admired idol. this is not a song from her new album, but is a damn nice song, couldn’t find any video on this song. Love the lyric of this song, agree totally, though not in relationship before, guessed love shouldn’t change a person totally, if you really want to change a person in a relationship then find another partner, she or he just doesn’t suit you. 

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I’m just hoping that Monday comes fast but Friday don’t come fast… oh pls. I just don’t mind working for two more weeks, i dont want to end all these so soon so fast. i’m going to miss them terribly. i’ll miss most is how serious they were when they are teaching me, guiding me. And i’ll miss Euguene’s voice, Fazi’s laughter, Hooichen’s funny english, Din’s sarcastic remarks, Daniel’s scream which sounds like a girl, Jessie’s and fong’s smiles. I’ll miss all the lunch hours, sitting in the office and chatting with Daniel. I’ll miss the view of PSA at night and during rainy days. I’m going miss them really much, seriously. I don’t know how am i going to face the last day at work, i pray so hard that it is not a rainy day. Now my mind is full of our memories together, it may not mean anything to them, i’m just an intern, but to me they mean a lot and a lot. I’m feeling so miss now, how i wish now is not 1.55am, Sunday, how i wish is a 8.30am, Monday. :):):):):):):):)

moody tuesday.

It’s only 1.32p.m, and i’m sitting inside my office, where some left the office for lunch.
Time is passing like it never pass, it’s a damn slow day.
Here I’m munching my cheese tarts for lunch, the best tarts. (intro by Zhao Pei)
Looking out of the window, it’s RAINING AGAIN AND AGAIN ALL DAYS LONG….
I would have gotten very bad mood if I’ve gone for LUNCH in such a weather!!!!!!!
Getting rather irritated with weather!!!!!!!!!
I hope tomorrow night wouldn’t be a raining, pls…..
not going anywhere after work, i’m just going HOME, where i’m been shelter!
not going ikea this thursday, not going clubbing too, running low in cash as my company is delaying my pay again. Thanks arh.

Oh no… Too much of going out in the weekdays after work and during weekends. I’m seriously, I’m sick of going town, bugis, hougang point and chomp chomp. Till I end my SIP, I shall not go there. hahas. I’m so tired of going out every day. Okay, I’m so going to spend at home the whole day for this entire week, ya like real??? This week, Monday going to Bugis (Nonya Cafe) w my family (exception), Tuesday going HOME, Wednesday going over to Bishan to have tuition, Thursday going IKEA to buy drawers, Friday going clubbing (maybe only), Saturday and Sunday STAY AT HOME AND DO WRITTEN REPORT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL. I’m going crazy man, with such cold weather, I’m going out this week again….

09.11.2008

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

  

 

 

 

 

It’s Janice 20th birthday, and we all went to Sentosa for a tanning session cum picnic, along with Janice’s friend Akim and Meiling. We had loads of fun today and took many photos. I saw this ang mo uncle whose hair is grey, I lorve that grey hair of his. lol, sound a bit sicko.  Anyway, I hope Janice enjoys her day today.