A chat

Hi, I just had a chit chat over msn with Eleanor, as i saw her online during her 21st birthday night, so i thought i could just causally chit chat a little while. It turns out to be quite splendid and it lasted for an hr and a half. Well, at first it was quite weird, but later on with all the familiar topics and people, we chat quite a lot and promise to go for the chalet this upcoming Saturday after my Vesak Day at Sunday School. Well, I’m beginning to feel the anticipation in me towards the chalet now, it’s more of meeting Eleanor that is making me feel excited. Well,  this is a good chance to be back as normal after one and a half yr? Well, not too sure and certainly hoping for the best or at least a good. HAPPY! Well, she is going Melbourne to do her Fine Art for the next 5 years, if we could talk more before her departure, why not? certainly and never want to lose this friend in the first place, so hoping and waiting for a good turn….

 P.S. I miss those hiding days with her and Noel…

Recently….

Monday to Friday….
Nearly two months at work, i’m still trying very hard to cope with my working environment. In the beginning, I thought it was only time managment that I have to overcome, it wasnt just that. Well, I could only say I am bad at human relationship, and I’m still stuck with them, not anywhere fixing it. I can’t wait to move over to Changi South asap, so that my department has our own space and block away those faces. Sometimes i thought to myself, perhaps i am childish, perhaps i am still a newbie to the working environment, but I believe i’m not going to be fake or tortise hiding in one corner, nope this cant be me.

Saturday to Sunday….
Have been intoxicating myself recently and i know i shouldnt have done so. Drinking coffee liquors at Ice Cube w Janice and friends, clubbing, and w colleagues in the office after work when my boss is not around. Clubbing was fun, my first attempt and will go again but not so soon, totally relax drinking and dancing w friends at Future that Saturday’s night till 5am the next day when the lights finally turn on. However, such places after all is not in my list of very interest, still prefer the quiet nature place.  I have been out of the path from Buddhism this year and i have to get back. Tricia approached me during Vesak at Ngee Ann, to teach Buddhism in Chinese. I’m like what???? *eyes rolling up and down* No, Tricia cant be really asking me such questions, Buddhism in Chinese? OMB!!!! Anyway, I rejected, perhaps next year I will explore ways to spread Buddhism in a more ‘my way’ kind, perhaps back to teaching? But never will i try teaching kids older than Pri 6, no way… Can’t stand teenagers and their attitude, kinda of too high for me to reach out. Have to think through… Anyway, rather than drinking, clubbing which lasted for only past 2 weeks, i have been staying at home spending time with family especially my dad. Well, thanks for all the concern, he is getting better and not using wheelchair anymore, however still have to stay home and slack. He must have been feeling terrible to stay at home to rot, which i cant stand doing it too. Take care, my dad.

My day….
Well, have been problem at work with human relationship and having inner struggling with myself. Thought through tirely and think that i should be more let go in my emotion during work. Have been having problems of feeling anger rising up and down fast and furious, this isn’t going to last forever right? I should gain more control of my mind over emotion, and stop thinking to negatively, just let go at the right time… All this is said but takes times…

5th of May

Happy Birthday to you.