Recently….

Monday to Friday….
Nearly two months at work, i’m still trying very hard to cope with my working environment. In the beginning, I thought it was only time managment that I have to overcome, it wasnt just that. Well, I could only say I am bad at human relationship, and I’m still stuck with them, not anywhere fixing it. I can’t wait to move over to Changi South asap, so that my department has our own space and block away those faces. Sometimes i thought to myself, perhaps i am childish, perhaps i am still a newbie to the working environment, but I believe i’m not going to be fake or tortise hiding in one corner, nope this cant be me.

Saturday to Sunday….
Have been intoxicating myself recently and i know i shouldnt have done so. Drinking coffee liquors at Ice Cube w Janice and friends, clubbing, and w colleagues in the office after work when my boss is not around. Clubbing was fun, my first attempt and will go again but not so soon, totally relax drinking and dancing w friends at Future that Saturday’s night till 5am the next day when the lights finally turn on. However, such places after all is not in my list of very interest, still prefer the quiet nature place.  I have been out of the path from Buddhism this year and i have to get back. Tricia approached me during Vesak at Ngee Ann, to teach Buddhism in Chinese. I’m like what???? *eyes rolling up and down* No, Tricia cant be really asking me such questions, Buddhism in Chinese? OMB!!!! Anyway, I rejected, perhaps next year I will explore ways to spread Buddhism in a more ‘my way’ kind, perhaps back to teaching? But never will i try teaching kids older than Pri 6, no way… Can’t stand teenagers and their attitude, kinda of too high for me to reach out. Have to think through… Anyway, rather than drinking, clubbing which lasted for only past 2 weeks, i have been staying at home spending time with family especially my dad. Well, thanks for all the concern, he is getting better and not using wheelchair anymore, however still have to stay home and slack. He must have been feeling terrible to stay at home to rot, which i cant stand doing it too. Take care, my dad.

My day….
Well, have been problem at work with human relationship and having inner struggling with myself. Thought through tirely and think that i should be more let go in my emotion during work. Have been having problems of feeling anger rising up and down fast and furious, this isn’t going to last forever right? I should gain more control of my mind over emotion, and stop thinking to negatively, just let go at the right time… All this is said but takes times…